LIFE AND DEATH

Well, I will say one thing about death;  I'm not afraid of it. I think mostly because I know what's coming after this life and I'm not trying to get religious or preachy but I just know. Anyways, how could I be afraid of a never ending paradise? How could I not want perfect happiness or to live on for eternity? I'm not afraid, I'm anxiously awaiting it!

 I think that one of the things that I am going to love the most about after death, is that everyone will not be living under the wicked traps of comparison. "Comparison is the death of joy" I whole heartedly believe that.
Comparing: Clothes, Wealth, looks, personality, talents, body image, etc... All of that is crap, yet I can't say that I'm free from it. I want to be.

BUT: With the same token, I can't have life after death if I don't live my life right. That is why I am afraid of life. I am constantly freaking out... am I doing the right things? Am I reacting to trials in the right way? Im afraid of the fact that I can't control what happens to me, only how I react. Im afraid that I'm not living my life so that I can get to death and have paradise. I couldn't be more grateful for my life but I guess I'm scared of the things I can't control like... bad weather, rapists, miscarriages, depression, etc.... These things are in this life but won't be after death.

   -I'm afraid of Life because of death-